Armed with Cheesecake and Vodka, World Watch Out, I'm Back!

Ok so Bryant and I spent some quality time together tonight watching Serpent and the Rainbow, then he wanted to google "voodoo" and find out more about it. It is odd what will strike a kids fancy but I told him not to screw with the religion, he will find himself in a dark place. Things have been going. School will be done in 7 days and I cannot wait. I am worried though becuase the people in my Wednesday night group have not been communicating and I am not sure if we are presenting tomorrow night or next week.

I figure now that my son is 14 years old I can start sharing the story of how he was born. I think I have forgotten the pain by now. I married his dad in 1990. I knew him for a short while and we got along great. As the years went on we also got along great as long as we were not in the same room. He travelled alot with work, and at that time there was no email, phones or gadgets on aircraft carriers. Just the old fashioned mail system. so we grew apart and I wanted to live and he wanted to party. I was pregnant many times, each time getting alittle farther along and each time crying my eyeballs out for months after until i got pregnant again. I was married to a person who had no feelings, who did not want to listen and who had better things to do. I had to cope on my own, and I was young too. Oh well. So I get all the genetics testing done and the doctors says... your immune system is killling the fetus. Ok got it, so what do I do to make it stay. STERIODS baby. wonderful...

So i joined Spark people, this should be interesting since I have no idea who half of these people are who I am sharing my dark secrets that need to stay in the closet. heh. Holidays were grand and I am really looking forward to the new years. But like everyone and thier mother, they will have the same weight loss goals and herds of fat people like me will go to the gym and try to work out everyday and the gym will be packed, and I dressed in an oversized t-shirt so my flab dont show will hopefully blend in and not be noticed by the hot man over there, you know, the one with the bit of grey in his hair... But then again maybe I will make a friend and we can drool over the men. HAH

All morning I have been looking through blogs and it is only giving me ones from other countries. Things are kinda slow at work today. I am catching up on alot of things that have been on the back burner. Newsletter Hello!!! The crazy woman has been telling people that she was puking all night, and in between sentences she is having thick coughs.. gross. I think that I am going to die here because if I don't catch something then one of her boyfriends are going to come into here and start shooting people away. OMG now she thinks that she may be pregnant. yet, she had her tubes tied and he got her period 2 weeks ago. I swear some people when they have these discussions they should go into an office. And she was/is now discussing gross stuff

Ok so we had to have a webcasting for our monthly meeting today, I thought it would be cool cuz then I could like listen and do other work while not being rude, so here I am phone on mute, listening to people come on and depart and then blah!!! My boss calls, so then I pick up the phone, which in turn disconnects me from the conference and it hung up my boss. Too funny. well the boss calls back and I act like nothing happens and I dont even bother to get back on the meeting because it annouces when you arrive and also depart. Not something that i want to live through. Oh ok.... so the diet thing... well it is going... going to hell in a handbasket. I have determined that I cannot go without my bread or fruit for that matter. So I think that I am going to do healthy for life. I like the recipes, the book is easy to read. You get to eat bread and also fruit YUMMMOOOOO. I have cheated like hell on the south beach thing... while throwing out the bad food in the house, I have been ta...

Gone to Plaid: The Blog

Ok so last night after work I went to the grocery and shelled out enough money for a months worth of regular food, with 1-2 weeks of diet food. The killer is, is that it wasn't really anything I wouldnt have eated before... greens, veggies, chicken.. I bought a few things for the boys so that they were not exposed to my eating habits.. although I am changing margerine on them. I spent a half an hour getting my breakfast, lunch and snacks ready and what do I do??? I leave them in the car. I am sure it will still be good when I go out for a break, smoke break that is. I am also cheating already and having 1 cup of coffee (caffinated) I cant go cold turkey. Damn if I were to read this I would think that I have major issues... do I have major issues?/ Other than, I cant go out to the moose with the ideal of getting wasted, I cant smoke in extreme only because I dont want to hear anyone tell me how bad it is for me when I have already given up bread, carbs, real cheese, carbs, bread...