Armed with Cheesecake and Vodka, World Watch Out, I'm Back!

With times as tight as they are becoming now, I am remembering Christmases in my past that were very short and nothing was under the tree. It brings to light the person that I have become and why the holidays are so important to me. One christmas we had was because of the Salvation Army, who allowed me to pick out a few gifts while they gave my mother a food basket. One Christmas - was grand, because credit cards found their way into my mothers hands. Later on, it would curse us as she would file for bankruptcy. One Christmas there was nothing but a small tree, my mother choose to drink our chirstmas fund. Our Christmases never were really spectacular. When I started working, they turned out better, but not by much. As I grew older I never really got the feeling of Christmas, I felt like I was a pawn in some monsterous game and that some day it would be true that the Holidays are just for rich people. I only had 15 Christmases with my mother, I moved out and became emancipated w...

For the next couple of days, I'm going to get all introspective on you and reflect on the year that was 2008. This is the first segment. Was 2008 good for you? In some ways yes.. but mostly no. But I did learn alot about myself and what exactly i want from life What was your favorite moment of the year? the Children's christmas party What was your worst moment of the year? April 26th 2008. Where were you when 2008 began? At the Moose With my husband and friends all around. Who were you with? Hubby and friends Where will you be when 2008 ends? Same place but differenet spirit Did you keep your new years resolution of 2008? I didnt make any. I will be changing that this year. Do you have a new years resolution for 2009? I want to publish a short story and get in shape before I turn 40. Did you fall in love in 2008? No. If yes, with who? Are you still in love? Honestly, I dont know Did you breakup with anyone in 2008? Kinda Did you make any new friends in 2008? Yes, I ...

Bryant is still sick. I am finally forcing drugs down his throat along with hot tea, lemon and honey. He has that horrible cough that has been going around and each day I pray and thank god that I have not gotten that cough. YUCK! It has been raining non stop today, and here I am wishing it was snow. I want a real blizzard LOL. Friend is doing well, she has a few more weeks before the dreaded day, and I am wondering what I can do for her. Send her flowers? Bake her something, make a meal for her family? I have no clue. I do have her address, so I think flowers are in order. I should make my tater tot casserole for them, since I know her son needs to eat. ugh

I need to get Bryant into the holiday spirit. He doesn't want to do anything for the holidays! I do have a feeling that it has something to do with our budget and how I am scrimping for the holidays. I have put money aside for him, so I keep asking him what he wants for Christmas and all I get is nothing is fine. UGH!!! Times like this is when his selflessness comes out and I am truely glad he has that fine quality and I guess I can say he brings it at the right time. I remember when Bryant was little I would go all out on decorations and make sure that the house was a prime example of going overboard and having a christmas house. I would make sure that all of the decorations that he made at school were hung all over the house and we would unlink one link a day on his christmas chain. I had an advent calendar which was a house with doors for each day and I would have candy in them or a small trinket. He thought that was the neatest thing. I also has a Santa Claus that I w...

Plain and simple, it is cold outside. For the first time, I wore a jacket last night! Bryant is starting his weekend off pretty well, he went to Culpepper to play in a pool tournament with Brian. Hope that he does well. He has been playing pool since he was 13 and it is really starting to show. I cannot wait till he wants to be in a league. He might make me some money after all LOL. I have Daisy the Dog this weekend. She is lounging on the couch and I am wondering why she thinks that she can eat everything that I am eating. As I was typing this sentence I looked around to give my dog a loving glance, then I noticed that she was not on the couch, under my feet or behind me.. OMG I left her outside. I ran to the back door thinking that she might be gone cuz she was not scratching at the door. She was out by the fence looking at something?? But she came in and starting eating the cats food. Alrighty. time to go christmas shopping.

Please make sure my friend makes it through the first week of January and for years afterwards. She is a good mother, a good wife, a good friend, and all of the above. I wish I could do something. I wonder what she is thinking really, not just what she is telling us... I am scared that if it was me, I would not be strong enough to be able to do it. Mark your calendars....So,I scheduled my surgery today. It's January 5th....double mastectomy, reconstructive surgery and sentinal node biopsy all in one shot. OY! Gulp....it's real now. THUD!

I am such a cool mom. Lasst night I made Bryant's currently favorite meal, mac and cheese and sloppy jo's. After that we vegged out for awhile and then Brian wanted us to go to the Moose with him so he could spend some time with Bryant. We went up there and it was okay. I was tired. But we got home late and I, the responsible parent says, "We HAVE to have birthday cake on your Birthday! So Bryant and I are in the kitchen eating cake at 11pm. That will be something he remembers. And I didnt even complain this morning when he woke up late and asked for a ride to school, I kinda figured that was coming.

Well, today is the big day. My son, is 16. I cannot believe that I have, well either of us for that matter, have made it this far without killing the other. He has put me through every trial and tribulation that is available, and I am sure that there are more to follow. He has proved me stronger that he, he has made me more assertive, more self assured and happy to be alive at times. He has been there for me on each birthday, with a smile on his face and a great big grin when I cook his birthday cake. His favorit is yellow cake mix with chocolate frosting. Yes this is also my favorite and I would not tell him that for years because I was worried he would change his favorite to be something other than mine. Ten things that he enjoys : 1. Scary movies - he loves these much more than I do and I do enjoy them very much. Right now we are watching "The Descent" (One of my favorites becuase the protagonist actually dies at the end) 2. Gummie bears - I have no clue, but he di...

This morning, I heard that another friend is taking her mother in for a biospy today. I am kinda shocked. She is a much older young lady and she is one of the nicest people that you can meet. Also found out that the same friends husband just got laid off of work and his last day will be Friday. He has 4 kids and goes all out for Christmas. This economy is not helping anything. UGH, i hope that things change but I also hope that they change for the better. I can't really think right now... whew! Made the best Orange Chicken last night, got it from Costco. Had some rice and eggrolls. brought some today for lunch with some broccoli also yummie.