is it possible to feel nothing?

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Timing is everything I think. 

Nothing has been in a good place for the past 6 months. I can’t shake myself out of it and I am having a really hard time making sense of it all.

I have no idea what I want to do.

Things are spiraling out of control and I have no one to talk to.

I do not feel happy yet I do not feel sad.  I can't stop crying day and night.  It comes in dramatic spurts. I have tried everything. 

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