Armed with Cheesecake and Vodka, World Watch Out, I'm Back!

How when the camera was on Mickey Rourke for his role in the wrestler, when they were announcing the best actor of the year away you could see Edward and those eyes... omg those eyes.

AS I am crusading my way to 40, I try not to think of getting older. I have way too many tell tale signs, more gray to cover when dyeing the hair, more aches and pains and some other signs that I could not place until this week. WELCOME MENOPAUSE into my life. I have all of the tell tale signs and it is here. I was out last night and when I went to the bathroom I had a hot flash so bad that I was nauseated for over an hour and just went home. That is unusual for me, going home that is. I can only imagine what this new predicament is going to bring to my crusade, but I hope that it is not going to stop me much, but now I know why I have been so so sooooo moody to other people like they are morons LOL. I apologize! Hormones? Ice pack?? St Johns Wort??? Help???

I was really I swear! But I have to mention one thing first... Yes this is my coming of age blog, but I do not do wild and crazy things on an every day basis so I have to fill the emptiness of the blog with other interesting things that I know my readers will read. Hence - I was reading a blogging friend that has something in her attic with claws made me think of this... We were living in San Diego at the time, near Mission Trails Preserve. Hence the word preserve so we all know that preserve means, mice, bats, snakes and all sorts of other things that are allowed to grow and mulitply on this preserve . We lived in a bottom floor apartment, and it was really nice, 2 bedroom 2 bath, great neighbors, tennis court, pool and hot tub. With all of these great things to do we found ourselves at home one Friday night, watching television when all of a sudden something moved out of the corner of my eye. Holy crap batman I was up on the couch in record time, while trying to tell Brian what...

Brian gave me a box of chocolates, told me that he wanted to do something different this year. Last year he gave me flowers for Valentines Day, again he wanted to be spontaneous. I found out 4 weeks later that he cheated on me. Spontaneous with my husband doesn't sit well with me. We meet in person on December 5th. We told each other that we were not going to get Christmas gifts for each other because we just met and all. So, I went and got him a big dog golfing sweatshirt and he got me rollerblades.. interesting. His birthday was in January and I wanted to get him something nice. I went to the antique store in the area, and found a liqour decantor with a golf image etched into the glass with 4 glasses that had the same matching emblem. Cuz I am nice like that. Neither one of us got each other anything that first Valentine's since our love was so alive and wonderful and the sex was great, that we did not have to affirm our feelings with cupid and waiting at a resturant...

Or watch Jeopardy, only answered half of the questions so I guess I will blog. I am procrastinating again, but have no idea what it is I am procrastinating. When I started dating Brian, yes we met online, and that is another cute story for another day. My blog, my rules. ok so I was trying to save as much money as I could so I would have enough money to go out with him every weekend. So I would take my lunch to work and not buy starbucks. Well, we all have heard about the Famous Eyebrow Incident and you would have thought that I would have learned. One day, a Thursday to be exact, I was plucking my eyebrows in pain so basically I would pluck out many hairs at once.. When I looked in the mirror, half of my eyebrow was gone. Okay, this could be fixed, so I took an eyebrow pencil and penciled it in and it looked pretty damn good. Leave house to go on date. Went to his house, played around, went to bathroom, looked in mirror, saw eyebrow gone, freaked out since I did not bring my ...

Was to say the least very interesting. My son and I moved in with my mother and while I worked and went to school she would keep an eye on Bryant. So needless to say, I didn't date much since I mean come on you can't really bring home a guy and expect to have casual sex while mother and son looked on. I just concentrated on school and work. When I turned 30 I bought a computer and discovered the world of AOL, and of course chat rooms. I loved those, I could stay up all night and talk to people all over the world who had the same interests as I did. I then thought it would be neat to put a personal ad up and see what would happen. . This is what happened... I met many men online, I figured that it was the same as being on a blind date or meeting someone at a bar. My mother would freak out so I would call her at all different times during the date. I went on many, but there are a few that stuck in my head for various reasons, once you read this you will understand. One m...

I am sure you all are dying to hear how my friday night dinner went with the blogging girls. It was amazing, and once things were comfy and cozy I was so proud of myself for going and I was happy to be around others. I got to the restaurant on time, only getting lost once and immediately recognized one of the gals from her picture on her blog. I went up to her and said hey there, then I stood there contemplating my escape and wondering if I made the wrong decision. I was feeling a bit ackward, standing there waiting for the light to signal our table to be ready. I looked down at my palms making sure that they weren't all sweaty. I looked around the waiting room, and wondered if I should go hide in the bathroom until the place closed LOL. I remembered thinking the same thing when I was out on blind dates when I was single, ,there was always that period of time of flight or fight. I never flew the coop but there were times that after I met the guy I wanted to disappear into th...

I have the directions printed out for the restaurant. It would seem by looking at me that I have a first date, fluttering about the house, aimlessly looking and wondering if my fresh shower scent will disappear before I get to the place. I am worried about what I am going to wear, if my jeans are going to make me look bloated, if I look too fat, if my makeup is too much, if my gray hairs suddenly pop out from where I have hidden them, all sorts of things. Most of the time I do not care about what others think about me and just do what makes me happy and I will do that tonight also.. I just hope to God that I have something hilarious to blog about. I wonder if I should take my camera... Would they think that I am odd? Well, just in case I will keep it at home... Just one of these things I am knocking out on my way to turning the big 40!!! Oh hey, I can invite them to my 40th party in like 8 months ahahahahahaha I'm kidding people.... well maybe.

I am so excited. I am going out with some girlfriends, it is a Girls Night Out, we are going to PF Changs, I love that place and I love drinking the wine there. But here is the thing, I have never ever met any of these women who are going to be there in the 5 years that I have been talking to them. Background... When I was younger (5 years ago) a friend turned me onto blogging on Livejournal. I created a blog and I friended my friend from work. Well, since I had no friends in the area, I started reading all about her friends and what they do on a daily basis. I have read when they had their jobs, when they quit their jobs, when they had babies, and more babies, and when they had issues at the grocery store... I feel like I know these people. They are my friends. I also know for a fact that they know more about me than some of my friends I see every day do. So anyways, I am meeting them all tonight. I wonder if they are holding me up to some sort of light and are going to be dissecting...

The "25 Random Things About Me" Meme. As if you all haven't seen it a bajillion times.Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you. Except, you know, this isn't Facebook, so, technically, all of you are tagged. And I doubt that many of you really wanted or needed to know more about me, but, there you go.Also known as The Things That Make Me, Me. And weird. How many of these did you know, anyway? 1 - I once shaved my arms, since of course I thought it was my non hairy arms that were keeping the cute boy away that I had a huge crush on/ 2 - I always have hand cream in my purse. I apply it every moring and night 3 - I have become a Facebook addict. (This is so not a surprise to anyone out there...) 4 - One of my favorite things to do ...

1. Do you like blue cheese? Yes Sir ree, I consider Blue Cheese its own food group 2. Have you ever smoked? Yes 3. Do you own a gun? I did before I was pregnant with Bryant 4. What flavor Kool-Aid was your favorite? fruit punch 5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Yes 6. What do you think of hot dogs? I can only eat them if I do not think about them. I love tomato and pickle with mustard. 7. Favorite Christmas movie? Christmas Vacation of course. 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? coffee 9. Can you do push ups? I am up to 15 without stopping 10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? ?? My charm bracelet my son gave me 11. Favorite hobby? Writing 12. Do you have A.D.D.? Yes! 13. What's one trait you dislike about yourself? I'm too fat and do not have the discipline to keep my ass at the gym 14. Middle name: Marie 15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: I hope I dont have heart burn, I wonder who did it on Medium, and tomorrow what am I going t...

Okay so we all know he is a teenager. But what I am going to focus on today is Bryant and Pool do not mix. It is never his fault, even if he is playing singles he still finds fault with everything else besides him. I am amazed to listen to him bitch and complain about the person he is playing with or against and it is a shame to have a son who cannot find fault within himself, but good also to know that I have raised a person who can go through life without always blaming himself for everything that goes on in life, relationship and work. Although I think that he will have a hard dose of reality soon.

Well, first day of the pool tournament and the results are pretty scary. I didn't do to well, but singles will be later. I keep telling a friend of mine that she needs to pick up the pace since this is her last tournament at Franconia so she needs to go all out and play good. We acknowledged this, and still played like crap. We got into the zone a few times then it all went downhill after that!!! We are drinking like it is the last day on earth and we are making sure that everyone knows that we are drinking. Even though it is only beer, we still can act like fools. We are all sitting at the bar, right now as I type, I am typing, sue is knitting along with Amanda and the only one drinking is Michele and Sandrine. They are making up for earlier when they couldn't hang.

Funny how when you are sitting in a conference and the presenter is boring you start to look around at the other people that you are sharing the room with, as you are categorizing these people as married, single, looking and plain out no thank you. I try not to be bias, but when you are wearing slacks with crocks, I tend to be wary. The presentations have been great and i have enjoyed them emmensely, I think my co-worker is following me around, making sure I go, whatever. Tonight I am back in ocean beach point loma area and I am going to take pictures of the sunset and there are supposed to be clouds tonight so I think it is going to be amazing.

I didn't know how much I missed this place until I arrived on Saturday and went outside the airport while I was waiting my luggage. OMG the sun on my face was the most magnificent feeling in the world, and yes this includes sex and seeing your child for the first time. The warmth on my face made me feel myself again, and through the next 24 hours all unpleasant feelings have disappeared and I am happy. I have not wanted to stay in the hotel room and be lazy. This morning I took what I thought was going to be a short walk to take pictures at Torrey Pines State Reserve and I wound up walking all the way down to the beach. It was amazing. I walked all together today about 3.5 miles, yes I was wearing my pedometer. I want to be concious of my exercise while I am on vacation so that I can eat a bit of what I want, rolled tacos, hot dogs from weinerschnitzel, a bagel with garlic, bacon and basil spread (Only in Ocean Beach) carne asada burrito's and whatever else I feel like e...